I’ve realized that most of the sadness/ lowness I feel comes from the three of you. You don’t realize it because, well… you don’t care about me or my feelings. you guys only care about yourselves and what you might benefit from. has it ever crossed your mind that maybe I care and i have feelings too? sometimes I feel like just dropping everything and finding new friends, but…. but i care too much about you guys to even do that. yet it seems like you guys have no problem with doing that to me.
Today has been actually really good, and so has the weather. I’ve been really happy the whole day.. I think it’s the weather. spring has finally arrived! it was in the 70s today and its suppose to be even hotter tomorrow! AWESOME.
how are you going to call me your ‘best friend’ and stuff, but when we’re with other people, you ignore me and act like you don’t even know me… which makes me look stupid. thanks. so much ‘best friends’. if you’re gonna act like that, then i rather us not even be friends because you only think of yourself and your ‘image’. what about me? i have feelings too. and this is the time where i think i need to make a decision based on how i feel because most of the time, i’ve been making decisions based on how i think it’d affect people. everything i do, is for other people. there has not one decision i’ve made that was for me. and right now, i want to do something that would please myself. even if you dont like it, im still gonna do it because sometimes i just need to think for myself and not just about everyone else
MAJOR RESULTS!!! I was so nervous about getting it. I put aerospace first, then electro-mechanical, environmental, LaS, physics, media, then CP.
When everyone was talking about their major, I was so nervous and I didn’t want to check my email. But eventually I did… in lunch.. and i got into my first choice! :D AEROSPACE. so excited about it. aerospace has always been my first choice and the fact that I got in was amazing, even though my ranking in aerospace wasn’t the best… but at least I don’t have to worry anymore. and now that the biggest worry has been solved, I can happily enjoy spring break!
7 more days til SAN FRANCISCO!
Last week of school before SPRING BREAK! this is gonna be a looooooong week. I think this is the last break we have before summer vacation. Wow.
It’s only monday but I’m already so over school and I just want to sleep all day
I bake for the fun of it and it makes me happy when I get to give it to people. But I’m not always gonna have enough for everyone. So if you consistently beg for one even though I’ve told you over and over and I don’t have any left because the remaining ones are saved for someone, THEN get mad at me when I don’t give you one… That just makes me want to stop baking. When my friends get baked goods from me, and they become happy, it makes me happy too. But if you’re gonna act like such a child then there’s really no point in me baking anymore. So what if you didn’t get a cupcakes this time. There’s always a next time. And I gave you cookies last week. But he didn’t get cookies last week. So logically, I’m gonna give him the cupcake this week and you can wait till next week for something.
Today’s date :) 31313
School today was actually tolerable.. Maybe because all I could think about was my trip to San Francisco for SPRING BREAK!
Sometimes I don’t understand why I am friends with you because you don’t treat me as I treat you. Yes you’re a good friend but at times you also use me. You’d say ‘let’s hang out’ but then when you see other people, you just ditch me. Or if I’m hanging out with you and a group of people you know that I don’t, you’d just walk and talk with them where I’m left in the back all alone. You don’t even notice me until everyone has left then you’d come back to me.
Or if I made plans with you to hang out and you’ve agreed. Then on the day of, you never text or call me to confirm that we’re gonna meet. So I’m stuck waiting for you to text/call me, which I know you are obviously not gonna do. Then it’s like the next time I see you, you come up to me like nothing happen. If you can’t go, why can’t you just text me and tell me that you can’t go? But thanks for letting me know so I didn’t have to sit at home all day waiting for you to text/call me. You are obviously a fantastic friend.